Oy.. *shameful* I feel like I owe you guys an explanation. I know I've been MIA for the past three weeks. Unfortunately, waking up at 5AM and the horrible commute + other stuff ripped out my innards and left me begging for mercy. Okay, that *may* have been some sort of hyperbole, but I think the point got across.
The past couple of weeks have consisted of good/bad eating and 2 days of exercise. Looks like I've lost so much of my motivation. I've moved, so I'm a bit closer to work! My commute is around 0:45 - 0:50 each way so it didn't cut down as much as I wanted, but it's still a great improvement. Truth is I have time to work out now; I just don't. Also discouraging is the fact that I left my workout papers at home! I'll pick them up tomorrow.
Food-wise I'm doing.. okay. I have gotten accustomed to not eating too much wheat but I've been slipping lately with animal products. I had like 3 quesadillas this week! In good news, my skin is the best it's been since 2008. so FUCK YEAH! Peanut butter was indeed the last culprit so I won't be eating much / any pb in the future.
I want to say I'll pick up working out again after tomorrow. But I'm not sure if I will. I want to want to. I love the look of my muscles and I know I lost a ton in the past couple of weeks I haven't been working out. However... and I know I am going to get hate for this.. but it is hard to have motivation to work out when you are already satisfied with the way you look! In Feb I was unsatisfied. I worked out, ate right, lost some fat, gained some muscle, got to where I was a month - month.5 ago and while that wasn't my ideal body it was the best I've had in my whole life. I was in the grocery store the other day, caught a glimpse of my reflection in the frozen food section and said damn! I'm skinny! So, lack of motivation is there when I'm already skinny. But I know I won't stay this way if I don't work out because if I don't work out, I also don't eat right. All or nothing. I need to get my mindset to where it was a month ago: I looked good but I could always improve. And I also need to remember I need to continue to work out so I can stave off osteoporosis when I'm older + keep my heart healthy. I live on the 2nd floor so I can't do plyometrics (boo hoo). I don't know if I want to continue P90X exactly the way it's laid out. I already skip many things: many of the push ups, yoga, plyo, some of the other exercises. I also think I don't get enough cardio but my knee started hurting today which I felt when I was driving during the times I was releasing the clutch.
We shall see. I know I was a source of motivation for some of you out there... looks like someone needs a favor returned!!! :D
